Something in My Eye....I Can't See

(the voice of my father)

Running fast........Running hard........ Running scared,

Running from the deep rooted scars put there by those who say they love me

There's something in my eye preventing me, I can't see......

The truth.

I'm told the truth so much I got it comin out of my ears

Listen with your mouth, speak with your eyes, my mother said

I refuse to allow them to hear my conversation with fear

Man that shit is weak and nothing like me

So I'll stay in what they wanna call denial

And be who I want to be

There's something in my eye preventing me, I can't see

Familia, my family.

Their value to mi corasone, to my heart is more than anything

More priceless than fine gold and yes

Sweeter than the honey in the honeycomb

Yet I don't think they know

I don't think my mother knows how much I wanted to give her instead of take

I don't think she know that I know how much I made her heart ache

I don't think my sister knows how much I wanted to protect her and be there

for her,

Instead of her trying to protect herself from me

Cause you never know what a brother might lift from your house to support

his habbit to suave...nah I mean

I wonder if she knows it was her love that helped set me free

So why do I run from them like I don't know....

You no sey....must be loco

Instead what I show them is how 'heroine got a hold on me'

I wanna go to Puerto Rico and lie down in the sea

But there's something in my eye preventing me.... I can't see

Four children.

One of which I denied was mine, boy looks just like me

Could have seen that if you were blind

Just feel his face then feel mine.

I eventually found this out in time but it was too late for me to change his

mind

About what he thought of me and I was to old to try

In my heart I wanted to say to him I love you and accept you as my son

The other side of my heart said if you're looking for a father I ain't the

one

But mida.....check it out!!

I've gone and got myself together

Look at me I'm straight. Yeah baby I'm destined for greatness

Now that I got this second chance on life

Come on mommi beila dance with me

I just came from my first physical check up and I'm good to go

Cholestoral low, no STD's life is good with no stress

Phone rings my heart leaps in willingness

To hear anything.

If I had know it was death's sting

I wouldn't have answered it on the first ring

Elated with joy, I listen carefully as the doctor's office tell me there's

a limit to my sum

And my second chance of life will soon be over

The drinking and the drugs although done long ago

has finally taken a toll on the function of my liver

my reaction

man you must have dialed the wrong number because my name is not fool or

sucker

whatchu mean I only got 3 years before I leave,

three years before I take my last............

breath into me breath of God....don't do this to me

Ahhh.....there's something in my eye preventing me....from seeing the truth

The truth is I lost sight of me,

My choice brought me into my destiny

And after all this time of rubbing my eyes I know why I couldn't see

In my way all this time has been

My perception of me.